Friday, February 26, 2016

The Library.. coming soon!

The library in memory of Mariah at Crossroads for Woman is now under construction!!

It’s been a long road getting to this point. But it’s been healing for my heart. Loosing Mariah has been devastating, not just for me and my family but even more so for Mariah’s family. For those of us who knew Mariah her suicide has left us with a gaping hole that will never be filled. For me doing something to honor her memory and bring light to her struggle was/is my way of mourning. I refuse to let her memory fade. Her struggle… my son’s struggle can’t be for nothing. God has been guiding me towards a path for some time now, he has been preparing me for this path and I am honored to do his will. Showing kindness to others who have been struggling with depression and addiction and bringing awareness to suicide and to an epidemic of this magnitude will be my life’s mission. I don’t know where this road will take me but I’m in it for the long haul. I have to… I need to!

The dream to build a library in Mariah’s memory is now a reality. Thanks to some wonderful people who have helped me, we have managed to earn the money needed for this project. I’m in complete aw! I know it will hit me once completed. My goal was to have this library up by March 7th, Mariah’s birthday. All the baking and long drives to Tempe twice a week to sell were so worth it. Thanks to the incredible recovery community who welcomed us and bought and donated with their hard working money to this project is now underway and will be ready on Mariah’s Birthday. Praising GOD and giving HIM all the glory!

Ana Counts

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Being a Heroin Addict

Mariah’s little sister messaged me the other day. She found this article and she said, “something about this spoke to me.” Upon reading the article myself I was amazed at how close to home it really hit. As I read this article I could see both Mariah and Allen in this story, only he lost her, not the other way around.

Having had a front row seat to their lives. I had to sit there and watch the rapid decline of their health and watch them slowly being enslaved by the astonishing power heroin possessed. I think this young lady expressed it perfectly!

"When I moved to Colorado after high school, heroin had my soul and it wasn’t planning on ever giving it back." - By kalielizabeth0139

"Being a heroin addict was putting a needle in my arm for the first time. It was living in my best friends room for months, only coming out when we needed more dope. It was shooting up the second my eyes opened just so I could get out of bed and consider starting my day." - By kalielizabeth0139


Thursday, February 4, 2016

The Plan

Hello every one!! I had to take a small break. I needed time for a very important family event, but I'm back now and it's back to the mission! I am currently still collecting books for Mariah's library at Crossroads Flower. If I haven't met up with you yet please be patient with me I'm a one woman show. (for now)

I would like to thank the staff at Crossroads For Woman for allowing us to build a memorial library in honor of Mariah. They have been so generous in giving me the time and space needed. I can't wait to finish and do the revel. I need volunteers! If you would like to join me in this meaningful mission please message me. Any and all help is needed.

Here is the plan....

I found the bookcases at Ikea. They are exactly what is needed to build this library. I will be painting the wall behind the shelving purple. (Mariah's favorite color) I also will be putting up a large 20x30 framed picture of Mariah. I was even thinking of stenciling some inspirational quotes on the wall!

BookCASE 1: This will fit perfectly in a space where there is a corner. It will allow us to utilize every inch of that area.

BookCASE 2: This piece will sit next to bookcase 1 allowing us to put up a beautiful memorial picture of Mariah above it that Crossroads suggested we put up to give as a reminder of our loss.

BookCASE 3: This shelf will sit next to bookcase 2 completing the wall unit.
The total cost for the shelving unit will be $629.91. WHEW... funds are needed!

If you have any fundraiser ideas PLEASE contact me,! If you would like to donate PLEASE contact me! I realize this is a mission I started on my own but I was hoping to bring all of us together to make this small tribute to Mariah happen. I think it would have a huge impact if we all had our hands in this. Not only would it mean so much to Mariah's family but it would mean so much to the woman at Crossroads fighting for their sobriety.

Whether you understand addiction or not it's a real thing that so many people are fighting to overcome. Addiction is YOUR aunt or uncle, mom, dad, brother, sister or friend... it's someone YOU care about. Doing something is saying "we care"! Whether it's handing out blessing bags to those sleeping on the street, or volunteering at a homeless shelter or a recovery center.... OR donating books or shelving... everything counts and it makes a difference!

I was shooting for Mariah's birthday on March 7th, but I'm not to sure that's going to happen. Prayers would be greatly appreciated!

Thanks Everyone!